I was radicalized over a decade ago but, sadly, spent most of my time down the dead-end of anarchism and cultural critique. Assessing Lenin's work on its own merits is what made me have a personal crisis of politics because I found that there there was no way for me to rebut the arguments he made, not for want of trying on my part. Then I spent a lot of time going back over the anarchist historiographical orthodoxy and general dogma that I absorbed. I came to realize that I was fed bullshit and that, in many respects, actually-existing anarchism was *at least* as "authoritarian" as so-called "authoritarian socialism" if not more so, even going purely by authors who are sympathetic to anarchism.
So I'm fairly new to studying MLism due to that reason and due to personal circumstances that have made it difficult for me to absorb theory. It's been a few years since the upheaval in my personal politics. I've also gotten involved in party work and organizing which has taken up a lot of my time and I can't say that it's regrettable, especially after spending a lot of time as an online anarchist who achieved virtually nothing to speak of.
Sadly I'm only fluent in English.
I'm determined and I have a passion for archiving written works, especially ones that are inaccessible for whatever reason.